<font class=z1>09/23/08</font>
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<b>Mood</b>:a bit sad..<br><br>
<b>Cranking</b>:watching Sailor Moon R.<br><br>
<b>Missing</b>: Bryan <br><br>
<b>Hearting</b>:Bryan<br><br>
<b>Last Update</b>:
it's true...he's gone. He left yesterday for St. Louis; and we talked. Isn't that grand?
but i'm really sad..really. really. I miss him tons; but i know this is for the best. He won't have his mum over his shoulder and he can be a cop. ^^ though i want to think he's lying about leaving. I guess i want to believe he's still here somehow. He might not be, but i want to believe that somehow.
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maybe i'm just having a hard time accepting this......
that could be it. I believe in us and i believe in him. I'm not worried about his loyalty..or what he's up against. He's truly in love with me and wouldn't dare..
oh well..oh well..
I miss him lots..
*sobs*<br>
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at least we can be in contact with each other without any fear. ^^ or hindrance.
i love my sweetheart to deathies ^^
<P>Ayumi</P>
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<font class=z1>09/20/08</font>
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<b>Mood</b>:okay....<br><br>
<b>Cranking</b>:Within You from labyrinth.<br><br>
<b>Missing</b>: Bryan and food ^^ <br><br>
<b>Hearting</b>:Bryan<br><br>
<b>Last Update</b>:
it's been awhile hasn't it? i've decided to keep this layout for a little longer. Though
that is unsual but i love it too damn much! anyhow, a lot has happened to me..
and it's been odd too. No longer can i go over and visit Bryan; his mum has put a stop to that. I was sure myself last monday. but whatever.
he still doesn't have his call nor his cellfone but apparently he's going to St. Louis on a scholarship. I'm happy but that completely shocked me.
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but i'm happy that he's leaving his mum's house.she's nothing but trouble, always trying to control him and that's no good. But hell, i'm happy even if i don't know the full details of it.
i'm just happy.but it won't be until a few months that he leaves.
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and i'm trying to hang out with him on his birthday or before it. I got him the cutest gift ever. anyhow..and i've been sick for awhile..at least since Friday; my cousin came over this last week where everyone at her household had the stomach flu. and i got it. today should be the last day of my ordeal..hopefully..
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i didn't even go to work either. I wouldn't of made it anyhow. oh well.
i hope it all goes well. lol..
<P> Ayumi</P>
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