08/06/08

Mood:depressed..

Cranking:Love Love Love by Epik High..

Missing: Bryan and Dave..

Hearting:Jonathan Crane..^_^..lmao..

Last Update: depressed..just bored..nothing to do anymore..but luckily i wrote a lot more..=) im soo happy..i managed to finish chapter 2 but im finding myself..missing him.. that's always a plus..still having nightmares and doubting people..again...my paranio(sp) is taking over..and any reason left in me..is insanely crazy..
I think i should be taken and strapped in..which sucks.. my reality is slowly slipping..and im sure to fucking notice it ... im uberly depressed..>.> now..and my eating habits haven't been stellar..i feel like im starving too much..and usually sometimes i can go without food...and i eat at weird times..and stay up all nite..and sleep all day..
Im starving myself again! and i purposely ignore my hunger! i can't explain why...>.> it just sucks honestly..I'll prolly die..and not having Bryan here to tell me..im not crazy doesn't help..i honestly miss him..so fucking much..no car..and no fone..>.> the only communication we have is internet..and email..geez..but why would he even bother? im screwed..
at least my birthday is coming up..^_^

Ayumi

08/08/08

Mood:ubberly excited!..

Cranking:Bohemien Rhaspody by Queen..

Missing: Bryan ..

Hearting:Jonathan Crane..and the Dark Knight..=)lmao..

Last Update:

it's my birthday!

so happy birthday to me..and yes my weekend is going to be awesome..seeing the dark knight tonite..=) should be fucking great.. wheeeeeeeeeee my weekend should be even funnier..having a party sunday.. i turn 19 today..wheee

Ayumi

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