<font class=z1>07/24/08</font>

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<b>Mood</b>:burning and..there ^>^..<br><br>

<b>Cranking</b>:nothing..<br><br>

<b>Missing</b>: Bryan..<br><br>

<b>Hearting</b>: nothing..<br><br>

<b>Last Update</b>:
grrr..went swimming yesterday..and that exhausted me..

O.O for 3 hours..3 <i>frickken</i> hours..but it was fun except i got sunburned again..

!(%*($%(*%^(*(%^*(^%*(^*(*%(*$(&(^#%&(*%$(&$%*&@%*&@

that pisses me off..lmao

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but anyhow..haven't heard from Bryan..so i suppose he's working..alot..
at cleaning floors and crap..i bet he's ready to see me..^.^ and im turning 19 soon! SO YEAH! but i wonder what will happen this year..it's all different..as i can see..but i hope it turns out good somehow..im just hoping..lmao

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<P> Ayu</P>

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<font class=z1>07/17/08</font>

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<b>Mood</b>:lonely and missing..<br><br>

<b>Cranking</b>:NO such thing by John Mayer<br><br>

<b>Missing</b>: Bryan and Dave!..<br><br>

<b>Hearting</b>: music..<br><br>

<b>Last Update</b>:

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geez..do i ever feel so lonely..been trying to talk to Bryan..and it hasn't worked..*sigh* i had a bad meltdown..this week..and doubt that he cared too much..geez
but yeah..

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and his friend is so stupid..oh let me elobrate..lol i swear..the forum i am going to.the one he is on..the people are intolerable really. They are hypocrits..to the highest degree. and he was...wigging out..this last weekend..so was i..

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bitches..
they have no idea..here i can flame..and i don't care..they are hypocrits..both Monty and JR..fucking bitches..and if i could..id both bitch slap them..for they need it. I swear..she thinks she's so better...with her conscending manner..it makes me sick..

AH!

geez..>.<

and it's lonely..and yes i do try to open up..but others pushme away..so i give up..and hide myself..

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and im still upset at Bryan..for not at least telling me what was wrong..i hardly believe that bitch Jr to really of gone through what i have..or done what i done..

im still upset..that's why i haven't been eating..ive been depressed..

i have..
i mean..seriously..im his gf..geez..i should of went to my dad's this week..lol..but no matter..the house is being watched..lol..which is just so fucking creepy..lol

and i don't know when i'll see him..

in 3 weeks..it's my bday..and im afraid..he'll forget that..geez..bastards..

and our anniversary..geez..

our one year.

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ive been crazy..because my period has been bothering me..all because i forgot to take my Yaz at the correct time.great.My pmdd just makes it all worse. Never felt that bad since..I was never on my BC. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr well i guess..
i see the hypocrits everywhere..and that's interesting..and..

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his mum..hacking into his myspace..still hasn't unbanned me..gotta tell him to do that..he's slow to do anything like that..i feel completely ignored when <i>she's</i> around..like she's better than me.. oh well...
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gotta figure out what i have to get him..

O.O
that should be fucking fun..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

should he really deserve something? i guess..i still love him..and he loves..but oh well..

he's been rather cold to me..since i left..Thursday.I swear..he's rite..he can't lie to me when im there..infront of him..oh well..i'll be patient..but at least explain why im hurt..

it stings a bit now..fading now..

but yeah..lol

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Ayu
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